New year. New me. JK. Just kidding. This year is the same Jordan Kinard, just facing a new path.
You see, 2018 was different than I could have ever expected. I planned and I set up goals and I thought I could, or would, figure it all out on my own. And I don’t know if I’ve ever been happier to be wrong.
2018 challenged me in ways I needed but had avoided. 2018 brought chances to grow that I wanted. 2018 saw the man I was and not only made me a better one but showed me I still had a way to go. 2018 took my plans and laughed, and then showed me what it had in store. 2018 brought me to 2019 and said, you’ve still got a ways to go but you wouldn’t have been ready without me.
So here we are. A new year and a blog I’ve written seven times over to get right. I still don’t know if I got it right but, simply put, I don’t have a plan. And as different as that is for me, and scary as that is, I know this year it’s for the best.
I do still have some items I want to do which include:
Reading through the entire Bible
Writing the 40k - 50k words I need to finish my novel
Reading at least 12 books
Working out 3 to 4 times a week
Practicing my Spanish 3 to 4 times a week
But other than those simple daily hustles, the big picture isn’t scheduled. I know this year will be different without a plan. I didn’t map out the year, I haven’t made plans or schemes for where I want to be or will be. I haven’t because this year I will let God handle that direction. I will let go of that control.
As different as that is for me, I’m already beginning to see how needed this change was. I tend to rely on myself a lot. On my ability, ingenuity, work ethic, and most of all my plan. I am self-made and incredibly proud of that, but I am also God made. I am who I am not only because of Him but also because of Him. You read that right, and in so 2019 will be about continuing that journey of J. It won’t be easy but it will be worth it.
This year's motto reads a little different too...
Be humble. Be hungry.
Listen & learn more than I speak.
Let God always be my guiding light.
Stand with courage.
Move with bravery.
Act with love.
Speak with kindness.
Trust in the Lord & surrender my steps to Him.
Don’t be afraid of where I will go.
Hold fast & stay true.
2019 & the future.
I read part of a poem the other day which eased my mind & heart in all of this. It goes like this:
“Now comes something new. Something beautiful. Something grand. Something great.”
As simple as those words are, they ring incredibly true. That is what this year will be all about. Trusting that there is something new on the horizon, and it really is beautiful, and grand, and great. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it. On the other side, I will be braver than I was, stronger than I can imagine, and wiser because of Him. It won’t be easy but it will be worth it.
You’ve got this, J. And I wouldn’t have it any other way, but His.
Post. Script. For the first time the blog photograph is not mine but I loved it too much not to use it.